Archive | May 2016

A Few Changes to the Blog

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I won’t be going a long hiatus I was just thinking about making some changes since I started writing again. I think I’m going to be posting more about my life after college and some of my experiences since I’m not a student anymore. I’m going to be doing Fan Friday, but I really would like to do something daily with my reactions with manga I’m reading. I also want to do a re-read of One Piece (that’s one of my favorites) so I think I’m going to be doing that with Daiya or Diamond no Ace. It’s a sports manga I started reading about baseball. I’m all caught up with Haikyuu (and crying about each chapter every week) I was thinking I could post my thoughts and reactions to Daiya.

I’m going to get back into fiction soon but I’m not sure if I want to do it on Wednesday like I did before, but I know I want to get back into posting my original stuff daily. I might do Second Chances daily since that’s more like writing a journal entry and New Home monthly since I have a lot of things I would like to plot for it.

I was also thinking of putting up an editing post soon since that’s what I did in college a lot, though I’m wondering if I should go through paypal or set up a Patron that way people can support my blog if they want to and have different services they can choose from such as another manga review post (since I’m thinking of doing Daiya one day and a re-read of One Piece on another), but I might hold off on One Piece because reading Daiya won’t take me too long.

So those are the changes coming soon to the blog. I can’t thank you enough for still coming to this blog to check out my stuff. Thank you so much!

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Fan Friday: Six is always best or my love for Osomatsu-san

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Hi we’re back with Geek Friday! Which I’ll probably change to Fan Friday because I’m a fan that sounds better to me. Today I’m going to talk about a show I recently fell in love with called Osomatsu-san. It’s a continuation from Osomatsu-kun, a manga published during the 60s, about sextuplet brothers who are grown up and facing problems in modern times. Each brother has a distinct color and characteristics that make it easier to follow than when they were children in Osomatsu-kun.

The brothers going in order is Osomatsu, Karamatsu, Choromatsu, Ichimatsu, Jyushimatsu, and Todomatsu. They’re all NEETs (Not in Education, Employment, or Training) in their 20s and the topics of the show vary from still living at home, not finding work, and the brothers’ individual problems in their lives. It’s mostly a comedy show where they do silly things such as when they became idols and hit every current anime trend in the first episode to Iyami and Chibita’s Rental Girlfriend where Iyami and Chibita take a potion where many funny shenanigans happen.

However, it does have it’s serious moment that gives another perception of the characters. Such as the episode Jyushimatsu Falls in Love where the normally silly Jyushimatsu falls in love with a girl. Then there’s the ESP Kitty that shows the truth behind Ichimatsu’s lazy demeanor when it comes to life. It’s not the average comedy show with each segment being of silly situations when these episodes are the ones that can pack quite a punch.

One of my favorite things about the show is that so many of my favorite seiyuu are in it! From Daisuke Ono (who’s Jyushimatsu) to Jun Fukuyama (who’s Ichimatsu), and Hiroshi Kamiya (who’s Choromatsu) and I can go on, but it’s so great to hear them all in one show!

Another thing that I enjoy is the way that it shows the differences between society when Osomatsu-kun was published and society now during Osomatsu-san. In Osomatsu-kun they had a special that showed how they grew up with some common careers and jobs while in Osomatsu-san they don’t have jobs, are still at home, and have some of the common hobbies of people in their 20s. I know it’s mostly a joke show, sometimes they have topics and issues that hits home very hard. Despite that it’s really cool to see the way both shows reflect the type of society at the time.

I could go on about what I love when it comes to Osomatsu-san, but I’ll stop at three things.

I really recommend everyone to watch this show it’s great!

Ever get that feeling…

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Do you ever have that feeling like you’re supposed to be doing something? I’ve had that feeling since I graduated. My friends tell me that I should take a break and not worry so much, but it’s hard. I’m pretty sure that my anxiety doesn’t help by reminding me that I should be doing so much more since I graduated. I feel that I’m doing a good job so far then there are times I feel like I’m not doing a lot like I could be.

I’m trying not to get down when I go on my newsfeed and see people either getting jobs or homes or cars. I know that everyone gets things done at their pace, though sometimes I can’t help feeling like I’m not doing enough. Sometimes it feels good that I don’t have to register for classes or have to get books then there are times I think I’m being lazy by not doing enough.

I do have one little class I’m taking, but I’ll be done in five weeks. After going to college for over 5 years, this little class feels like a breeze. My only problem is I’m not too sure what to do once the class is over. I’m looking for work and reworking my resume. I am worried that my lack of job experience will hurt my chances for getting hired. I’m trying not to let it worry me that much even though it sits in the back of my mind. It’s pretty hard to try and keep that under control when my anxiety starts to spike and so many questions run through my mind like:

Should I be sitting here?

Shouldn’t I be writing?

Shouldn’t I be frantically looking for work?

I remember when I frantically looked for work before in the summer when I was on break before fall semester. It’s a little bit hard since there’s only one car at my house and the public transportation isn’t the best. (I don’t think it’s very safe to take the bus in front of an abandoned building.) I think another thing that’s bugging me is the need to do something different. My life has been in a very similar cycle for a long time since I was always in school. Now I’m out, I’m realizing that there are things that I want to do.

Yes, I know I have to find a job along with finding different ways to support myself, yet I can’t help feeling that I’m restless for change. (It can also be my Gemini nature speaking up too.) I do think that maybe a change of scene will help. Life hasn’t been the best. I can’t remember the last time I’ve been super excited or happy about something in a long time. I’m tired of being unhappy, stressed, and I’m looking to make sure that the rest of my life is a happy one.

I really want to try and be happy. I want look for ways to help with my anxiety and depression. I’ve been doing it on my own for awhile that I think it’s time for some outside help. It would be nice not to get crippling anxiety when it comes to playing video games, applying for jobs, or writing. I think the biggest thing I need to do is give myself credit for graduating with all the things thrown at me. I did it.

I should probably take it easy and give myself a break.

There are times I forget to do that, but I’m going to do a better job in doing so.

Does anyone else get that feeling?

Sunny Day

I have a post written up that I will post either Wednesday or Thursday and a Friday one too since I’m trying to start up Geek Friday again (which I’ll call Fan Friday because I love alliteration) but for today I wanted to post this picture I took today when I was outside.

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There was something about how the sun looked in the tress that I really liked. I hope it shows up good here.

Alright I’ll post another thing later on this week.

Hope everyone is having a good day!

I graduated! Now what?

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So it’s my first week since being a graduate and it feels different. I have a class that I’m taking at the recommendation of my advisor, but it’s not the same as the schedule I used to have when I was going to school full time. I don’t really consider it a class either since it’s so short, but things have been good so far. I’m still super nervous about everything though like I spent my last semester working out ways to graduate which varied from family reasons to my own and now that I’m here I don’t know how to react. I’ve been looking up life after college and I’m not sure which methods to follow.

I’ve read the same that everyone is making it up as we go along, but I can’t pinpoint if the reason I feel so unsure is if it’s the normal way to feel after college or if my anxiety and depression is messing up with it. One of the things that my anxiety likes to do is convince me that things are going to be awful while my depression lets me know that things that are going to be worst. That’s something that I haven’t been able to read for life after college.

How do you handle life after college when your anxiety and depression keeps telling you that it’s going to be awful? Well, I do know that when I walked across the stage I felt really happy. There were so many times that I thought I wasn’t going to graduate. I really got ready to drop out because I nearly let my anxiety and depression talk me into it. It took a lot of talking with my friends and using sticky notes to convince myself that it would happen. Man, there were so many times I can remember breaking down, skipping assignments, and reaching the point where I figured that I could fail this class what would be the problem. I’m just really glad that I stuck it out and kept going.

I am pretty proud that I didn’t let those two things stop me, but it wasn’t easy. I can’t even begin to describe how when my environment around me changed so drastically how it messed with my mind. My anxiety talked so much during those times that I always had to sit down and write out that things were going to be fine, but they wouldn’t be fine if I didn’t get up and do it. My depression made it hard for me to get out of bed some mornings and go on campus. There were some times I did skip on campus. If it felt like it was too much I didn’t go to class. It helped me feel better afterwards I have to admit, though now I have to try and figure out how do I work with this?

I know when I do find a job I can’t just not go or skip if things get too much. I think that before I get a job I’m going to have to see a doctor first. I know that my anxiety becomes super bad when I start new things because I automatically think that no one is going to like me. I know that some people won’t like me, but I tend to think that it’s everyone so I know I’ll need some help there. Then there’s my depression that’s going to act up and it’s going to really tire me out. I guess for me life after college will be more how do I join the working world while keeping myself intact.

I’m pretty sure I can do it I just hope it will be easier.

I’m trying to have a good feeling about this week too! I hope the week goes well for all of you too ^_^

 

Hi everyone! Long time no see!

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Hi, hi everyone! It’s been about three months since my last post hasn’t it? Well, I fell off a bit due to finishing up school, studying for finals, and writing my last papers cause guess what I’M GRADUATING!!!!

I FINALLY DID IT!!

I can’t begin to say how hard it was to get to this point, especially when my depression was super high. I really thought I wasn’t going to finish. I told my friends that I was going to drop out and that would be the end of it. They talked me out of it which led to me to keep going. My brothers did the same and now I finally made it. I’ll always thank them for helping me out when I needed it. Man I can’t believe that I’m actually finished. It feels so surreal that the only thing I have to do is a six week program then I am truly finished. I really am so proud of myself. I even manage to get better at controlling my depression and anxiety. It hasn’t been easy. I really do want to look into getting some help when I have the money to pay for it. Until, then I’ll just keep using my methods that’s helped me so far.

I think another reason I’m so proud of myself is I finally figured out something I wanted to do. Originally I was going to be a teacher, which was a job that ran in my family, but when things changed in my major I opted to leave it. Education changed too much for my liking and I knew I wouldn’t be happy being a teacher. I left the major, but I didn’t know what to do at first.

I figured it out when I walked by the table of library sciences. The woman I talked to told me about records, keeping books, and making sure that everything is set. I always had a love for books, to find a job that I could work with them made me really happy. When I take a break and hopefully find some work I’ll go tackle grad school. Right now I’m going to enjoy my first time being out of school in a while.

It’s really odd though at the same time. I’ve been in school since I was in kindergarten, trying to push myself to keep up my grades and my work. For the first time in a long time I’m going to be out of school. While I’m really happy that I did it, I’m still a bit in shock that I won’t be in school anymore. I mean, there’s going to be grad school when I get to it, but now I don’t have school. I’m really happy I got to this point though. This time two years ago I really didn’t think I was ever going to get out.

Now I have and I feel really great! I’m finding all my hobbies again, making time for myself, and trying to figure out where to go next. I still have a lot of goals I want to hit. The list isn’t too big it’s mostly get a car, find a place, and get something published. I can hold off on finding a place for a little while, though I really want that car. I want to be able to use my license. One of my main goals for grad school is to carry myself around. I wasn’t able to do that at all in undergrad. I’m hoping things will be different in grad school.

I’m going to slowly come back to my writing schedule. I’m trying not to do too much at the same time since I finally have time now.

Thanks for always checking out this blog even when I kept falling off.

How is everyone?